Higher Self of Carolyn Gervais

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WIRED FOR LIFE

Many believe it is best to ignore those memories that bring up fear; or to shove aside and deny fears that one might have for their life; from their life and in their life.  This is true in many cases.  But how about those fears that cling and actually haunt a person no matter how hard they try to embrace them and let them go.   It’s not always easy to let go or embrace a fear that you are reminded of often, if not on a daily basis.  This is understandable.  But no matter the case, some people have such a bright attitude about everything that little bothers them for very long.  But then again not everyone is wired and imprinted in the same way.  Each of you throughout your lives will continue to transform old outdated imprinting, for newer updated imprinting, which will then also update your present wiring and soul contracts.  This being the case, there are infinite combinations and variations of imprinting and wiring that go into how one discovers self and uses that soul understanding to conquer fear and live a full and fruit bearing life. 

How does faith play into this?  Faith in a higher knowing and a higher power can move mountains, but Faith with a capital F is usually an acquired asset; something that most people have to integrate and allow to re-surface from the depth of their being by expanding their awareness from the inside out.   This expansion will take place but as to when is individualized and determined by the impact your experiences have on your psyche.  We are not referring to blind faith here, but Faith that comes with a refined understanding of Self as life… in a world of duality and now triality, and all that entails.

Here is a story about a particular pair of identical twins that will help to explain what is being said.

Christine and Chrystal were identical twin little girls who were born into a very dysfunctional family; not unlike many families of your Earth.  Their father was a strict, angry disciplinarian who punished the girls at the least provocation.  But he never raised his voice to the girl’s mother who suffered from depression.

By the time the girls were seven years of age, their mother began drinking heavily and hiding her alcoholic beverage of choice all around the house.   Christine and Crystal were just eight years old when their father had given them the job of coming home from school and hunting all over the house for their mother’s hidden bottles and emptying them down the drain.  Then they were to locate mother’s car keys and hide them from her so she wouldn’t be able to drive to the store for more. 

To make matters worse, sometimes the girls’ mother would swallow large doses of potentially lethal medicine after locking herself in a room.  The twins would sit outside the door crying and begging their mother to come out.   At some point their father would finally get the door unlocked after coaxing had failed.   And off they’d go in the middle of a school night to the hospital …to get the pills out of mother’s stomach. 

 Christine and Crystal  would sit out in the locked car, in the dark hospital parking lot, for quite some time and contemplate what bad thing they had done somewhere, somehow and at some time that they didn’t remember doing… to be given the parents they had been given.   Still, they truly loved their parents and they prayed nightly that their mother would get well and that their father wouldn’t punish them so much.

The twins were in the same kind of environment day after day, year after year.  They feared everyday as to what they might accidentally do to anger their father.  They also feared what state of mind their mother would be in each morning they awoke from sleep.  Would it be another day where mom was sad?   And if so, what would be required of them to prevent her from doing something rash until their father came home from work. 

This all had its affect on the girls.  But Christine was the twin more prone to sadness, shyness and insecurity …so much so that she had a hard time interacting with other kids.  Because her feelings gave off a repelling energy, she was ignored a lot.  This caused her to withdraw into herself for protection.

 Crystal was shy as well, but in a different way than Christine.  Because Christal’s desire and need to interact with other kids was so much stronger than her need to protect herself… it was easier for her move out of her safety zone of shyness and become more outwardly active and focused.  She was always able to acquire her own little group of friends and be well liked.  However it did have its drawback. Crystal was so outwardly active that she would talk to her friends too much during class and get herself into trouble with her teacher; while Christine down the hall, sat quietly in her class hoping no one would notice her, especially the teacher.

Though Christine and Crystal as children were being imprinted with the same kind of input from their parents … they each handled it in the only way they as individual aspects of God could.  They were identical twins, but their soul consciousness was not identical; the way they each experienced life inwardly and in the outside world was very different and their soul wiring was quite different; in some ways completely opposite.  

As the twins grew, both twins longed to be accepted for who they each were as individuals and not because they were identical twins.  Other kids assumed because Christine and Crystal looked identical, they would be alike in every way and were often disappointed to find out that they were not.

 As said, it was Chrystal who other kids gravitated to and not Christine.  This only added to Christine’s deep seeded feelings of unworthiness.  So much so that she truly believed she was a mistake.

Regardless of the fact that Crystal had no problem communicating and making friends, she still harbored the fear that she was less than other kids, as did Christine… largely due to their parental imprinting.   But the way Crystal handled her fear of being “less than” was to push her energy outward into the world and bypass that fear temporarily.  She was able to do this because her desire to have friends to play with, was so much stronger than her fear of feeling “less than.”  

Christine’s and Crystal’s inner reaction to the imprinting they absorbed from their parents had to do with each twin’s core wiring.  Crystal’s core wiring as a soul… took her father’s angry ways of controlling and her mother’s lack of control; mixed them in with her own wiring and developed a type of false bravado that helped her to survive and function as a child.  As the child, this false bravado was used to appease Crystal’s inner fears long enough to bend a situation to her personal will. 

Christine’s core wiring on the other hand made it much more likely for her to pull her emotions inward and use them in a self-deprecating way.   It wasn’t so easy for her to put on a false bravado, and even if she tried, it didn’t feel good.  So Christine’s core wiring took her mother’s victim persona; her father’s power to diminish her human dignity; mixed them together with her core wiring of which brought her feelings of compassion and empathy; for those who were mistreated and felt alone like her. 

Once this transformation took place in Christine…if she saw a classmate being abused and bullied, something would click on inside of her temporarily, and without hesitation she would run to the aid of the child being victimized to help them.

 This is how Christine’s anger and resentment toward her father and mother, gave her the strength; in special circumstances; to temporarily rise above her fear of rejection and loneliness in order to defend another.

As the twins grew into adults, both had similar inner challenges to deal with.  It took some time for them to find their individual way to overcome their fears or transform them.  

 At the age of twenty-five, Christine came to a turning point in her life.  There were so many things she wanted to experience and accomplish, but fear had always stopped her  She was told in a dream once that to overcome fear you must get close enough to see it for what it really is. Her mother’s life had been a perfect example of what fear could do.

Always being acutely aware of her fears…it was not hard for Christine to begin taking time to sit down, close her eyes and objectively look at where she had been, where she was and where she wanted to go.  She knew it was time to stop running and really look at her options.  Christine took herself through a couple of scenarios of what her life would feel like if she did not pursue her desire to do and be more.   She could definitely see without a doubt… that she would end up like her mother if she did not pursue her dreams.  She wasn’t willing to take the chance of living an unhappy; unfulfilled life.

 In other words Christine only saw one option to not end up like her mother.  She knew she had to push through her fear of rejection in all its forms and take a risk at living life to the fullest… at whatever cost to her ego.  That is what finally gave Christine the strength to begin to transform her adult fears into something constructive; which did in fact bring successes and desired results into her life.

You might be wondering about Crystal.  Well Crystal actually became more afraid of venturing out into the big world as an adult, especially without Christine.  If she did at all, it was in ways that kept her safe from outside rejection of any kind;  her husband made sure of it by protecting her as much as he could… from anything that could make her fearful.

In other words Crystal pursued dreams that wouldn’t require any self risk, on any level.  That was enough for her.  Her childhood false bravado wasn’t strong enough to appease her adult fears.  But since Crystal married into money, she was rarely bored.  She loved having dinner parties and entertaining house guests.  On many levels that fulfilled her needs and she was happy.

Though Christine went after her dreams, she still had her share of rejection and disappointment, like all people who take risks.  For short periods of time, she would feel like that lonely, insecure child no one wanted to play with. But it wasn’t long before she would pick herself up with a new found strength and determination to get out there and live her life.  In the process she experienced her share of success as an entrepreneur and became very respected by others.

What the story of Christine and Crystal is saying is that a person’s wiring and personal contracts, greatly determine how their imprinting and contracts manifest.  Even identical twins, identical triplets and identical quadruplets have different wiring, no matter how exact they may look on the surface.  Yes, DNA does play a part in personality traits, as in likes, dislikes, talents and abilities, but it is up to each identical sibling as to which traits, talents and abilities they choose to develop.

Identical siblings will potentially have the same talents and abilities but their soul wiring and imprinting will determine how they as individuals will develop and use their likenesses…of which may end up looking and being very unalike.  

As children grow, it is the parents that imprint them the most on the deeper levels of their psyche.  Because of a child’s pre-wiring… their imprinting might appear to manifest in a way that favors the father’s character, at age six let’s say.   And at age twelve it switches to favor the mother’s character more. 

For instance:   The way Christine’s pre- wiring mixed with the imprinting from her parents; at the age of six…  gave the appearance that Christine would probably duplicate her mother’s self-deprecating life.  

At the age of six, Crystal’s pre- wiring when mixed with her parent’s imprinting… gave the appearance that Crystal was going to be more like her father; strong willed and in control.

What our story is saying is that: The way you are pre-wired at birth will determine how, why and what kind of imprinting has the greatest impact on you and your life.  This will also determine how; and how many ways, that impact can and will manifest… before it is recognized and transformed by you as you continue to grow in awareness.

So you can see that it could take some time to overcome some of your fear based childhood imprinting and not just live with it, but transform it. Transformation does not mean you will necessarily be rid of a certain imprinting all at once.  What it means is that the unwanted imprinting will change and develop in different ways over time, which is called transformation.   With each transformation, your wiring is upgraded as well.

In our story, Christine transformed her fear of rejection and loneliness with another fear; that of ending up like her mother. That is what gave Christine the strength to turn the corner as an adult and choose what would enhance her life and not what would destroy it.   Any transformation will take on new faces; new feelings; new energy and new ways of manifesting on its way to Transcendence.   

Transformation means to change something into something else; like silver into gold.  To do that, the atomic rate of the silver must be speeded up in order for it to change into a higher; more pure form, such as gold.  All is energy in any form, human or otherwise.  All energy goes through this process of transformation.

Energy through everyone… will continue to evolve and create changes on your Earth.  Changes are transformations that affect all levels of existence, including the human psyche.  When the changes are upgrading and not degrading, they make room for healing.   Healing evolves everything in its path, and is also a byproduct of love in all its forms.  The more unconditional love becomes; the more human faith upgrades and transforms as well.  That’s when faith with a capital F increases and becomes a transcending energy.  This is the process of transformation on its way to transcendence.   As you transform your imprinting, you will upgrade your wiring of which will upgrade your DNA.  And on it goes until you transcend ... and live in the pure light of Allness.

Carolyn can help you to understand your personal wiring and how to use it to transform your life with your personal “Soul Chart.”

Your destiny is now.

You Are Blessed and the Blessing,

Higher Self of Carolyn Gervais

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Carolyn Gervais

Carolyn Gervais http://awakeningyou.com

I offer you spiritual and personal help in the following areas which includes my original toning and new age CDs.


WHAT IS SOUL CHARTING?

A Soul Chart is a tool to help you better understand who you are as a soul and why you are here.

Charting reveals what kind of wiring... physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually... you came in with and how to use that unique wiring in ways that help you master, heal and accomplish what brought you to Earth.

Your chart will show the most important goal you came to achieve as a soul in a human body.


COSMIC LANGUAGE OF LIGHT (HARMONICS OF THE NEW ENERGY)

Toning with the CD, while relaxing in a comfortable chair or sitting on the floor...centers your whole body and mind into a state of relaxed peace, as it balances and moves you into higher levels of consciousness.

Toning can take the place of meditation or can be used to put one into a meditative state of mind.   Each vowel, note and sound fine tunes and helps manifestation to take place on all levels of your life.  Why?  Because your energy becomes less scattered and more focused as you practice toning.

You might also enjoy just listening to the CD as a relaxation technique.

Toning has been used for healing, manifesting, centering, clearing blockages in ones life for thousands of years.  Now it is being used to bring in the new energy of change.


"FACE IN THE MIRROR," CAROLYN'S ORIGINAL NEW AGE MUSIC CD:

Carolyn began her spiritual quest at the age of eighteen.  That quest is the inspiration for her original music on her CD, "FACE IN THE MIRROR".
 
Carolyn came from a family of many vocalists and musicians.  That's why her music is diverse and extensive.  This has allowed her to sing and perform in many types of bands as a lead singer and backup vocalist... for country, top-40, show bands, and several orchestras.


EMPATHIC-INTUITIVE COUNSELING:

I tap into your higher self to give you answers to your spiritual and personal questions.


OVERLIGHT SPIRITUAL PSYCHOLOGY:

Life coaching and problem solving advice.


CERTIFIED CLINICAL HYPNOTHERAPY:

Includes past life regression;resolving and healing unwanted patterns.


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About Carolyn:

I have been a student and teacher of “metaphysical-spirituality” for over 30 years. You can find out more about my background by going to my website at: http://awakeningyou.com

I have an M.S. in Wholistic Nutrition. I am a Certified Clinical Hypnotherapist, Certified Spiritual Counselor and a Minister of Overlight Spiritual Psychology.

Beginning as a young child I yearned to understand why I was here on earth.  When I looked into the eyes of someone, whether I knew them or not, I could see and feel their sadness; their anger and their innocence. A strong yearning to understand why became such a need, that I would continuously drive the adults in my life crazy with questions as to why God made us and put us here on Earth. I was told that “God” didn’t want us to know the answers to such questions, but some part of me knew, even at the age of eight…that answer was not acceptable. I was bound and determined that I would ask God all my questions until He answered them.

What I found out is that the answers keep expanding as we grow in awareness; that's when the questions become more complex as we go deeper into our truth. Why? Because the picture of ourselves and our life becomes larger and larger.

My inquiring mind has taken me into many aspects of study, meditation and otherworldly experiences that pertain to the deeper meaning and purpose of the body, mind, soul and spirit.

Love is the creator of the Universe!

Blessings.

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